Determined Misery....

Do you ever have days when you're just determined to be miserable??  I know that sounds crazy....I mean, it isn't like you WANT to have a bad day when you just feel like crap the whole time.  That is just sad.  But, do you ever have days that start off and you just don't feel GREAT....so you just don't make any effort to make it a good day??  I call that determined misery.  It means you are basically determined to have a bad day because of some small, stupid reason.  Well, yall might think I'm crazy.  I probably am.  I bet no one reading this has EVER  had a bad day like that before.  It happened to me yesterday, though, so I'm going to tell you about it.  


First off, I am a wimp.  I am a needy, dependent, selfish, wimp.  Basically.  So on Sunday night I was all upset.  Cameron (and everyone else in Pontotoc) was going to the basketball game in Jackson yesterday.  Then, Cam said he had a tennis match (in Corinth) today.  Last week, everybody was at beta convention on Monday and Tuesday.  So, Sunday night I was all sad and upset because I wouldn't see anybody.  Then, I woke up on Monday morning and felt the same way.  Though, it was a tad worse because I didn't sleep much the night before because I was all upset.  So yesterday morning I got up, was sad, felt like crap, was sleep deprived, and it was Monday.  It didn't look like it was going to be a good day.  Honestly, since I knew that, I didn't attempt to make it any better.  I could have easily had a good day and talked and laughed with my friends.  Instead, I decided to focus on all the negative things that happened yesterday.  For example, I was told by my parents I got out at 1, when really Camden did.  I got out at regular time.  I decided to be all unhappy about that instead of being excited that we didn't do anything in volleyball and I finished my homework.  So, I was just determined to be unhappy.  By doing that, I made other people feel awful and miserable too.  I know I made Cameron feel like that, even though I never intended to.  I think I probably made Kat feel bad too.  She was at least really annoyed with me by the end of the day.  Anyways, I got up this morning and decided I was going to have a better day.


I think THAT is the problem with people not having good days.  I you TRY to have a good day and focus on the positive things, then it'll be great.  If you just think about how awful you feel, then you are miserable.  Think about that next time you think you're having a bad day.  Technically, it is your own fault.  There is ALWAYS something positive to think about.  Here's one thing: God loves you.  He sent his son to die for YOU.  Yeah, and I love you.  Today is going to be a good day. :)
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